Birth Mother Letters to Heart to Heart

I feel so alive even after I lost a part of me. My mind and spirit are at rest knowing that the few days of love and kindness I received from my adoptive parents, my child will receive for a lifetime. No longer do I feel sad, but I am stronger now, I have truly learned from this experience. I was lost, anxious, and afraid for myself, my unborn child, and my children back home, but God sent these wonderful people into my life to bring back the joy in me. There are now two mothers to love my son, a dad, four brothers, and three sisters all as beautiful and sweet as he. As I wait to go home I am not ashamed because I gave my baby life and love. He might not ever know me, but my heart still beats for him. The time I spent with him I will always have. I will cherish each of those moments and lock them in my heart and until his heart beats next to mine he’s the only one with the key. Honestly, I can’t understand myself, how I could be so joyful after I’ve cried so many tears. Maybe it is because I had Heart to Heart to drive away my fears. To those in my situation your days will get easier. You chose life over death, you are a strong person and you have great worth.

Heart to Heart Birth Mother 2005

As the days go by I find myself getting better. I am finally coming to terms my decision about my child. Though I miss him so much, I have to believe that I made the right choice. It still hurts and I don't think the pain will ever go away completely, but I am dealing with it. Your counseling, along with all the thoughts and the prayers have made a big difference in my life and how I am able to deal with my decision. Thank you for doing this for me.

Heart to Heart Birth Mother 2003